And then he says that if he sucks my dick then he wants me to fuck him or no deal. So I said, I was looking to get my cock sucked, nothing more bro. And he wanted to meet behind Wal-Mart (It's secluded, and has woody areas behind our Wal-Mart) And so I get there, and made sure I was hard first, and then he tells me, I want to get fucked. I put out an ad on craigslist, saying "looking to get dick sucked, nothing more" and I ended up getting an email from this guy in his 30's. And I am a straight looking guy, tall, well built. First off I am not GAY, but I AM Bi-sexual. I confess, I just fucked another dudes ass for the first time. Maybe it's safe to say that no future intimate relationship will ever happen.
now, i just look at people like they're emotions that can either make me happy or sad. Will the next girl i date feel special? will i think that we've got something special going on? has my past relationships n companions made it impossible for me to feel again? has the things i've done affected my morals and beliefs? i once had limits. i recall a violent relationship, a deep relationship and the last one, my first love. These people have been in my life intimately and know me in ways that no one else does but, now, when i look at it - as i approach my mid 20s, i look at these past relationships with an ounce of sadness n disgust in myself. i've dated students, a nurse, a stripper, a medical doctor, a girl that was allergic to condoms, girls online n i've been in drunk and sober threeways. i felt i grew from these experiences but actually, it's made me feel empty. i've hung around gay people just to test the waters and allowed myself into certain situations which i knew would leave me vulnerable. Was it me? was it her? was it the timing or where i was at mentally? why does it even bother me? why do i let it stop me from falling in love? Sometimes i wonder why relationships with previous girls haven't worked out. Never done that before in my life, but it was kinda exhilarating. I didn't mind though, I just wanted to fuck. He didn't look that bad in the face, but he had kind of a really thin body.
Truthfully, he's probably having second thoughts. He kinda acted coy, then he got kinda mad and asked me to leave so I left haha. Then I just dropped the question, "Do you want to have sex right now?" (Lol) Dude wasn't expecting that at all. So I started chatting him up a bit, I could tell he was attracted to me. Wasn't even attracted to him, just wanted to fuck a negro. LOL) but it's late over here tonight and I just got this urge to walk into this convenient store and ask the dude who works at the counter if he wanted to have sex. (my dick is bigger than his though, LOL) I don't know what came over me, (besides him. He is a year older than me, and we've always been close. I confess: I actually had sex with my cousin last weekend (will elaborate if you'd like).